Foolishly Overacting

Light of my LIFE

2012-01-05T07:19:00.000-08:00

What am I hoping for?

I am hoping for justice to everyone who has been oppressed,
who has been by people of higher authorities.

I am hoping for equality.

And above all,I am hoping for ~~world~~ peace.

Hope, would you define it?

As for me, HOPE represents the light in the candle.
The wind represents the different
There are situations that triggers stress in our way.
A weak breeze of wind comes a sway of the light but the light is still there but
with strong breeze the light go out. Compared to our life
the with little stressors we may be affected but in the end the hope remains.

The message here is as long as hope is there, we must do everything to keep the candle lit. Let's continue to hope this 2012 and make our dreams come true.

My own version of Intimacy vs. Isolation

2011-09-28T07:34:00.001-07:00

I'm back,it's almost a year that i lost track with this site.Anyways im here to talk about feelings.Im here to rant all about my doubts and uncertainties in life. As I can recall of Eric Erikson's theory at my age now I should be at my Intimacy vs. Isolation stage, and yes I think I can attest that this theory is true. I have this doubts in my life that if I fail I would become this isolated girl next door and if I succeed I would develop more friends.
The more I think about doing something for my future it the mere thought of it reminds me of failure. It reminds me that in whatever I do it is a do or die process. It also reminds me that the clock is ticking by seconds and I am losing time. What should I do? Should I do or should I not take the risk?....

I know I sound foolishly overacting again but hey it's me! :)

World Gone Blind

2011-03-11T19:44:00.000-08:00

headphone at full blast.. :) can't get it off my head :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rcy59f_HNz0

What’s up world?
You can never, never give what you don’t have
Every action is a reflection
If you want love, then you give love
The addiction of position
The misconception of power
Money over brother
That’s the life for the people at night
For the people who died for a country or stripes
So imma be like B.E.P. rockin’ that positivity
For the kids and the future that we share
We walk that one earth, one God, one blood
Three stars and one sun
Love and hate is all gone
No more fighting drop that gun
No more religions and no more division
To our leader, future leaders
Hope you lead us honestly
Heartilly, no artillery
Forgive and love your enemies
And you get what you want
Kalinaw sa paminaw
Kay ang gugma mo, ang gugma ko
Ang gugma ko, ang gugma mo
Has the world gone blind?
Brother ‘gon need a brother
Say we one race but we killin’ each other
You need to see the love
Has the world gone blind?
Brother ‘gon need a brother
Say we one race but we killin’ each other
You need to see the love
I pray for the person who shot my friend
Hope it won’t happen again
Tell your kids and tell your families
God’s the mastermind
I hope you have a peaceful mind
‘coz the world that you live in
Is the world that I live in
But I won’t stop believing that
Tomorrow is a brand new day
Never too late to right our ways
Never too late to unite our race
To one love, my hand I raise
The world is turning
Never ending
But people ain’t learning
People killing, people dying
With the same old story
Need a light when the days is stormy
Need a light for the people that were sorry
Step up with 24 billion
Better think about it
Life’s to great to destroy and waste it
Need a light for the peoples who needs it
Light for the people on top with power
Who sitting and slipping on papers
Light for the night
Light for our filaments
Together we shine
And the world ain’t blind
Has the world gone blind?
Brother ‘gon need a brother
Say we one race but we killin’ each other
You need to see the love
Has the world gone blind?
Brother ‘gon need a brother
Say we one race but we killin’ each other
You need to see the love

random rants

2011-01-13T02:21:00.000-08:00

sometimes what you expected is not what would really happen. Today it's gonna be smooth sailing tomorrow would be so different,i know it's wrong but hey why not say it to my face and make me realize that nothing's gonna work out. I guess that's more acceptable than making me look, sound and act like an idiot. Oh! Boy have a feeling I'm assuming so much..

another rant from foolishly overacting me...just bear with me..

I hadn't posted since I dont know...so yah this is my lame excuse :)

I'm expecting to post more in this blog of mine from now on..

Yipey!

You are a student nurse

2010-03-20T05:41:00.000-07:00

You are a Nursing Student

You will be mentally stressed. You will be emotionally challenged.
You will learn how to work together. You will learn how to work alone.
You will learn when to speak. You will learn when to be silent.
You will learn when to lead. You will learn when to follow.
You will be constructively criticized. You will be praised.
You will shed a few tears. You will share in each other's laughter.
You will learn the need to help each other. You will learn to help yourself.
You will learn to be part of a group. You will lean to be yourself - an individual.
You will learn responsibility. You will learn discipline.
You will learn these things because someday someone's life will depend on you.
You are a nursing student. You will graduate. You will be, in all its wonder and glory, a Nurse.

--- Anneleise Garrison, RN

closure much?

2010-02-22T06:06:00.000-08:00

Having too much closure in a relationship is not good?

I know I stopped blogging in a long time..I guess I just way to express myself so bare with me this time.

Anyways, so back to my question is it a good thing?

Let me take to you the different consequences of having too much closure.

1) You trusted him/her so much, in the end he/she cheated.

Yeah, I know, most say trust is the most important part of the relationship but too much trust is WRONG. Think of it this way, there's sand in your palm, hold it too tight and it flows back to the ground. Hold too loose and poof to the ground they go.

2) You are too attached to him that you forgot to save some privacy for yourself.

Get hold of yourself, don't give everything, save even a thing or two for yourself.

3) You/ you're partner suddenly have this feeling that the relationship is boring and falling apart.

Oh! Come on! Get real! I know your seeing the same face every second,minute, hours, years, decade,century........and so on.

I know I'm again foolishly overactiong but hey tell me do I made any sense?

a talk on martial law

2009-12-13T06:21:00.000-08:00

Last December 4, 2009 GMA implemented Proclamation No. 1959 which put the Maguindanao Province in a state of Martial Law. My stand on this is to oppose the proclaimed law, I might be a youth not knowing most of the laws of my beloved country but then as I have known Sec. 18, Art. VII, 1987 of Philippine Constitution stated that in order to implement martial law there should be presence of INVASION and REBELLION. Now let me ask you, were there any rebellious activity? The guns that were recovered by the Armed Forces are owned by the Ampatuan Family. The effort of the current government was useless because within the place there are people who are greedy of power, fame and money.

Martial Law is never the answer and solution of the more than 60 people killed in Maguindanao and even the Extra Judicial Killings all over the country. What we need is to know and implement the JUSTICE and PEACE. Justice for Maguindanao massacre victims, Justice for all Extra Judicial Killings and StOP Rural and Urban Militarization.

Mr. and Ms. Norsu 2010

2009-11-23T06:50:00.000-08:00

This year another set of contestants vying for the Mr and Ms. Norsu, who will bring home the crown?

Mr & Ms NORSU 2010 Trailer from Chamberlain Guevarra on Vimeo.

Disclaimer: I dont own this video.

suicidal rampage

2009-07-11T05:13:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I last posted something in this little site of mine. I've been very busy with things and as I was surfing the net today, a desire to make my little fingers to do crickety-crackety with my keyboard and encode something that are stimulating my freakin' neurons.

And the one that keeps me thinking this moment is about suicide.

Just like the pandemic Influenza A(H1N1) suicide are widely known and many tried it for different reasons. For reasons that maybe, just maybe triggered their violent mind. What made me say this? Not to break my code of ethics I won't mention any names, This patient in a hospital I know had committed suicide because he was not able to be in the honor roll. Another, I know of is my Uncle he, himself committed suicide because his wife left him. And according to my assessment one of my patient(a school age child) had a wound, when asked how did he acquire this wound he said that he used pencil to make himself bleed because it's what's his classmates were doing.

Imagine a school age child being influenced by this suicidal rampage? I guess we have to do something on this. At this moment of life they are in their stage of imitation, the olders as their role model.

first day high

2009-06-17T00:56:00.000-07:00

The first day of school is one the child's very important day in the whole schooling experience. First day of school is a very exciting event for it is the day you meet you new teacher, the day you can use your new pen, the day where you can meet new friends and even enemies. Some parents discourage their children to not to go to school on the first day but mind you base from my experience being always present in the first day of school is exciting. If I'm going to be mother someday I'd definitely encourage my child to be present and make friend as many as she can so that everyday of her school days he/she'll be looking forward to which may lead to a better future for her:)

independence day

2009-06-13T07:38:00.000-07:00

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June 12, is one the Philippines historic date.The 14th of June is the day our forefathers reclaim what is rightfully ours. We've been through a lot from the spaniards,to Japanese, to Americans and Alas! Freedom. We have experienced a lot of calamities which led to the death of many but here we are standing strong. Even if some of our brothers are among the very cause of our death, we continue to live and go strong for we believe in ourselves. And I will end this post saying "Ako mismo ang tatapos sa aking mga sinimulan"(I,myself will finish what I had started.)

My New Signature

2009-06-07T23:44:00.000-07:00

I've got a new signature. :)

a new era

2009-05-22T01:49:00.000-07:00

My country has been captured by the Spaniards for more than 300 years thus influencing us in every single way. So just like the Spaniards, my countrymen and I myself loves grand furniture, we are very distinct in every furniture from the different shape and carvings. The very common furniture in every house is made up of wood and even bamboo, made from the very creative minds of the carpenters to satisfy each and every ones pleasure. In my mind set having a house of my own as influenced not by the Spaniards but my parents and past generations, I would like to have a a Rustic Furniture (which I think are made up of woods of every variety) that will reflect my personality. That would be furniture that are very playful (not literally), in the sense that it should not be common and boring, it will bring joy to the eyes. I guess we should play with the color, to give the rustic furniture a new era.

who's who

2009-05-19T10:10:00.000-07:00

To prove that this blog is not all about rants and those stuffs, I decided to put my crush's picture in this blog. His not as hot as Brad Pit. His not that famous too and his in a Taiwanese band named Lollipop/ Bang Bang Tang. They're teamed up with the girl group Blackie Girl/Hey Girl to have a romantic comedy series the "Brown Sugar Macchiato".

http://media.photobucket.com/image/wang%20zi/jherelyn_01/1034692739.jpg?o=43

Tadaa! Presenting Qiu Sheng Yi also known as Wang Zi which means Prince.
Btw(by the way) I'll not make more fuzz about him cause i'm so crazy with asian drama right now so maybe I'll find someone who's better than him anytime soon. :) Right now I'm watching Godfather in Pink but I can't find any english subtitles poor me. I'll leave you the brown sugar macchiato link episode 1 part 1 for you to watch. ENJOY!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dH94J3ifWL0

Happy mother's day!

2009-05-12T00:35:00.000-07:00

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Happy Mother's day mom! and to all the mothers and mothers to be.
Happy mother's day!

"The hand that rocks the cradle, is the hand that rules the world..."
Enjoy every second in your life with your mom this mother's day.

living the agoraphobic way

2009-04-21T03:09:00.000-07:00

I watched this afternoon an episode of HOUSE and it depicts a patient who is agoraphobic. It bugs me,definitely occupies my mind how would an agoraphobic live? I mean how would they manage to buy things for themselves? How would they have money for their day to day basis?

Then again nothing is impossible, online jobs are available, and most of all online shopping is definitely available. From various brands and styles with just one click products already in your doorstep waiting for you to be picked, no need to have an extra effort walking your way to an establishment.

The best in an online shop is that they give suggestions and tips on what suits you most. So I tried to surf an accessible online shop and I found this tips on buying the perfect shoes from it being trendy, to being not that costly. I found out that in choosing a perfect shoes is never about the style itself but being comfortable and not that costly also counts. Surfing this online shop, I found this very interesting barefoot sandals, really I love it. I should wear this on my wedding day, oh how dreamy of me.

http://www.jewelsbymichele.com/products/barefootsandals/bridalpearls.html

I guess being agoraphobic is not that bad after all shopping is definitely fun. Being an agoraphobic is never a problem to enjoy shopping.
All hail ONLINE SHOPPING!

finding neverland

2009-04-15T04:59:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not updating this blog lately and thank you so much for visiting my this cozy little spot. This holy week I went home to the place I once know the "Never land". The place where I think people will always be the same, the place that never grows up and the place which is frozen in time but that what I thought now after years being away from home; everything and everyone are almost in there "mature stage". New buildings and establishments, new generation of people. I guess I'm the only one who is still immature not only physically but mentally,socially,emotionally and spiritually.

Everything's change from my perspective. The new stores in front of our church, the new lottery franchised, new bakeshops and new bus route. I never expected that "Never land" is on the verge of becoming a more industrialized place, more people from the highlands coming.

I guess change is inevitable, I'm the only one who things there's such thing as NEVERLAND instead it prove me wrong. The only constant in this world is change. There's no Neverland that's what my mind says but then again something inside of me still suggests Neverland exist. That's when I realized Neverland is real, it should be real. Neverland is just around the corner, it is in our heart.

The Neverland does exist, in every individual there lies the place that never grows up. How conservative or boring you may sound but you know how to have fun and be childish sometimes. You may reminisce the beautiful and fun memories in your childhood and wants to do it again, that's because Neverland works.

NEVERLAND exist!

where I truly belong

2009-04-03T06:16:00.000-07:00

I know most of you are inclined with the fussing of chat rooms hopping around like bunnies in different rooms. The most common chat room when I was still in high school is the yahoo messenger, that was the time when I became aware of chatting in the cyber world. New friends are formed through online and even love sprouts through this prominent way of communication, families met online through webcam chat. Chatting became rampant due to its accessibility and affordability, different chat rooms are made to people with common interests. It will be a total chaos when people of different interests are together in the chat room, so why not make a change. Lately, I myself is looking for a room "where I truly belong" I was let me say chat room hopping until I found an Anime Chat Room. This chat room connects me to people who themselves love anime through I can be my own self and brag about what naruto shipudden I had seen or express my love of Bleach. The best of this chat room is I myself can enjoy chatting and broadcast my live video by camera with no payment at all. So if you're an anime fan like me, then why not try this Anime Chat Room and together let us conquer the anime city with pride and dignity. Long live anime lovers!!

social networking scam?

2009-03-29T06:51:00.000-07:00

With the increasing number of members of a social networking site such as Friendster and Facebook too many risks are in great danger. We can't be too sure of the sites security system. And later this evening I read a bulletin in my friendster account that deliberately says they can hack an account anytime they want at a reasonable cost. If this is just a prank well April fools is way too far and you can't blame me for being very concern of my protection from those scammers.

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listen to others even dull and ignorant

2009-03-26T07:43:00.000-07:00

Lessons are learned through school and experiences.

Today I learned a new quote, well sort of.

Boys are always on the go with this game called DOTA.

And they developed a skill of trash talking making the opponent pissed off and so they can't control their own hero well.

So,last night I was in a internet cafe and my attention was caught due to their undying loud voices shouting at each other(man they act like savages).

And I heard this guy saying your butt crack smells, and the other guy responded with "don't talk too much because your mouth is near your mouth and my butt cracks' way far form your damn nose!"

See? A new quote,which can be used for substitute with the boring once such as

Don't judge the book by it's cover.

As the desiderata poem says listen to others even to the dull and ignorant they to have their own story.

Learning do exist through listening.

good and somewhat bad week for me

2009-03-19T05:33:00.000-07:00

A week of torment and the Final Exam week is officially over.

The past week is a torture, upon waking up instead of appreciating the beauty of the morning I tend to groan and force myself to prepare for the examination.

And today, Final Examination Week is finally over.

Few more days and I'm going home to the place where I belong and I get to meet our new puppy.

What was her name again? Ohw, I'm so excited already.. :)

I had a good and bad week so how was your week?

Is it good?..

Hope to hear from you...

:)

senility strikes

2009-03-13T05:06:00.000-07:00

Arghf I think my senility is dripping to every single

blood cell of my body. I think that I've been too friendly lately that I oftentime

forgets the name of the people I acquaint with. I'll just look at their faces with

a hidden puzzling expression(it's a secret) and wave my hands with a smile as if I

know their names. I usually don't greet people with just a wave and a smile but

mentioning their names, so as to let them know I know their names. Oh well, names

don't matter anyways it's the moment you have together. I may have an Alzheimer's

disease in the future but the happiness of being together with my friends and

families are never comparable to any emotions in life. So enjoy life as if

it's perfect everyday.

I may be overacting again but it's true, Live life and let life live.:)

letter of love

2009-03-04T07:31:00.000-08:00

Feeling so exhausted in supporting our candidate for the Mr.and Ms. South East Asian Organization I searched for my pharmacology notes for I needed it for the examination to be held tomorrow, guess what I found midst those notes.

Curiosity triggered already? Oh well so much for waiting without further ado let me introduce to you...(influenced by the pageant night) "the letter". You read it right a letter,by someone I know and he let me read to double check this but he didn't get the letter back...

To...

I hope your not mad at me for being insensitive and annoying. I just wish I could turn back time and undo all the mistakes that I made because every time I see you I feel the pain of regret. If only my life wasn't this way,if maybe my life would have been different story, then maybe I wouldn't be feeling what I'm feeling right now. I'm glad that I got to know even just a small portion of your being. I envy you, your freedom and the story that you've written which you call your life. My life? You have no idea.. but I'm trying to live it and I'm glad that I still have it. When I see you smiling it makes me both happy and sad. Happy in the sense that I have feelings for you and that I feel that what I feel is completely sincere and true. And sad, because I know that you will only be a good memory to me. My life would never fit yours, and any person who knew me well would know that. And if I were in your place, I know what I would do..the exact same thing that you would do.

To me, even if I haven't had a chance to get to know you more, you will always be the person who took my heart away from me. My head is spinning and all I can think about are why's and maybe's. It's my fault though..I know that I'm not supposed to be falling for anyone anymore. That stage doesn't work for me anymore. I think I've said enough. Just take care of yourself and value the impotence at your being single, don't give yourself away unless you're sure about it. Remember regret always comes last.

By...

PS.I know this letter is completely corny, but sometimes we have to be corny to say something important.

Wanna know why he didn't claim the letter back?I've seen the author of this letter how he loves and adored the girl, how he got hurt this proved me that "love is just a mere fabrication of our imagination." wanna know why? It's because he found a new girl now that makes his hypothalamus(love is felt by this organ not the heart) work. You see he'd managed to move on, he managed to make his heart beat again. So much for his frets, that he will never have a girl that will take his heart again.

happy birthday to me!

2009-02-28T21:40:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to me!!!

Argf I'm already 19 years old..

One more year and I'll be over my teenage years...

People do grow old...it was just as like yesterday when I left my hometown

too study in this city..

I used to cry a lot those times and now all those feelings are coming back to me

I miss my family, I wanna go home

It's been hell being alone with a "family" I barely know

I need time with my family...

I had too much time for myself...

certified sober

2009-02-27T09:35:00.000-08:00

Today is certainly not my day....

There are times in my life that a twist on how I think will happen.I am suddenly cursing myself, and even wishing I'm inhuman. Inhuman so as to be free from the pain,to be free from slavery. The slavery within myself.

And today is one of those days....

I'm totally out of my "rotten" mind so bare with me...
My "rotten" mind can't even think if am I suppose to laugh or to cry...
Crying wont do me good..and laughing trying to mask my confusions and frustrations also don't even do me good either.

a priceless possession

2009-02-25T02:47:00.000-08:00

Life is the possession that we should value because this is not ours. I am here in a cafe wherein I knew a friend a year ago. He is a fellow student nurse but we attend different schools. I would say we are close and he's a good friend, he's the one who really listens with my nonsense talks, he even gave me a Spongebob key holder from Cebu when I told him I want something when he arrives back here.

The last time I saw him was the day before yesterday it's just the same friend I know, he even joked around and tried to mess with my hair. I was taken aback when I came to visit here and someone told me the news,which is his death.

The sudden twist of his life is unbelievable,who would think that in his early age a heart disease can take his life in a flick. My fellow humans, life is a priceless possession so while we are still alive let's show our love ones how much we love them before everything gets too late. :(

when everything turns down to you

2009-02-24T04:25:00.000-08:00

Everybody is affected by the recession of USA, this is not the only country that has been affected by recession and so as the different countries of the world. Even the Oscar's Award which is a very invincible show has been affected with the recession, they cutback parties and even the decorations are not so lavish compared to the past Oscar awards. If the invincible show's experiencing the recession so as the ordinary people like me, so I am in doubt spending money on things. I am really craving to give something for my mom and dad as a token of appreciation for loving and caring me,for being by my side always(such a sober). So I have been doing some research or whatever you call it. Then I stumbled upon a post in the New York times that reviewed eyeglasses of different brands and discusses their strong points and what caught my attention is this Zenni optical eyeglasses wherein you can order a pair of eyeglasses with just $8 dollars that's about 300 pesos and if I'll order locally most probably it would cost around 500 pesos and above depends with the style. So here I am having an opportunity to spend lesser with too many frames of eyeglasses to choose from. A variety of styles from old fashioned frames to the latest trendy frames. Who says "you can't be fashionable with an $8 in your pocket". As I surf at this eyeglasses site I found this nice eyeglass which I posted below. As usual pink is my color, disagree with me and I'll rant all day long. The glasses looked nice,that pair of eyeglasses is what I'm getting if my eyes will turn down on me. As for my parents I had a hard time choosing what frame they like so I just have to let them choose. Isn't it a great idea for gifts and personal use? When your pocket and eyes turned down to you then Zenni Optical Eyeglasses makes you see life as bright as a bolus of fire.

An $8 dollar eyeglass with a style

game within a game

2009-02-23T01:02:00.000-08:00

It's been "centuries" since I had my last post,so here I am again saying hi to y'all and thank you sooo much for visiting this blog of mine. I got busy with this online game ourworld. This is a simulation game that you can play games with. A game within a game, as I prefer, in this game you can play games such as cake mania,cake mania 2 and many more. Playing games can make you a rich character and even being a mamaw (a gamer language which means strong) . If you wanna join the game I can be refer you so that you can help me as well earn gems. :) You might say I'm addicted to games but I'm actually living in this way,playing online games from ragnarok, cabal, and even pet society in facebook. This me and this is who I wanna be. :)

NBA fanatic

2009-02-16T01:08:00.000-08:00

This year's NBA ALL STAR is over for those of you who are NBA fans this is the time their favorite stars shows off their talent in shooting hoops from dunking to shooting three points.This year's all star is done and like any other all stars games basketball stars compete and try to win a trophy. The winners for this year's Slam Dunk champion is Nate Robinson and the West won in the East vs West basketball game,Jason Kapono won the three point shootout,Derrick Rose won the playstation skills challenge and finally Kobe Bryant (my ultimate crush :D) became the MVP. The nba all star is not all about their talents in basketball but also in dancing and other stuffs. Shaquille O'neal the big man shows his talent in dancing with the Jabbawockeez,how sad it's his last all star but I'm looking forward for the next nba all stars for Kobe Bryant might join the Slam dunk contest. GO KOBE!.. :D

happy hearts day

2009-02-14T05:25:00.000-08:00

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Today is hearts day and single awareness day,well sort of. Today we had dinner together with the family and my aunt who will be taking her board exam this march made me feel exhausted later this afternoon. She made me recall all the philosophers even John Dewey and Sigmund Freud. She didn't dismiss me until I finished answering her eight pages answer sheet,that was so tiring argh. Well I told my mom maybe I'll take the board exams for teacher I'll surely top that exam *wink* my mom just glared her eyes on me(poor me). Hope you guys had a great day.

answer to a problem

2009-02-13T04:57:00.000-08:00

Do you know what's my favorite car? Well its more of a "dream car", I know we have different taste and opinion on things so for me Picanto is my "true love". When my friend told me how hard it is how to maintain a car my heart is again broken into pieces. What I did, when I got home I immediately surf the net and find ways to lessen the day to day car expenses. I found out lots and lots of ways but what caught my attention is this a blog about BYD this stands for Build Your Dream, this a blog about a Chinese invention which is now available in the market, these cars are not your ordinary day to day cars they are electric cars powered by batteries. These cars might be the answer of our long time problem,these cars are not freaky looking cars instead you have different models to choose from. To know more about these cars you should visit this blog BYD. This blog shows gives us more information about the product and also how he got to buy a share in the BYD company. The answer to an incurable disease is finally here, just visit the BYD blog and let this blog introduce new to the future.

A BYD product

a blog award

2009-02-12T04:33:00.000-08:00

This is the very first award I got, thanks to my friend Dhurianne of Walk with me.

So here are the Rules:
1.) Put the logo in your post.
2.) Write 5 things you are passionate about aside from blogging.
3.) Tag 5 people on your lists and let them know you tagged them.

The things that I'm passionate about:

1) reading books (bookworm not much just those are the books i think that's interesting :D )

2) surfing the net for new informations

3) taking pictures of myself...(vain)

4) daydreaming

5) singing my favorite songs...

I am tagging this award to Karlj, Sheila, Warshock, Kal EL, and Marie.

bad news and more bad news

2009-02-07T17:44:00.000-08:00

February 7, 2009,the day the "city of gentle people" became part of the sea. I might be too exaggerating but I thought of it that way. The seawall was destroyed, the houses were sucked into the sea as if the sea's calling them, houses freely floating in the sea even with their owner inside fighting with their lives and grasping for air. That flood was the biggest natural calamity I had felt in my stay here in Dumaguete City but no matter how hard it is to move on, we have to. The morning after the flood people were very busy cleaning their houses and the commercial buildings. This is life after a downfall we try to stand up again and live. After that calamity and before that flood gang rape is rampant in the "city of gentle people" and on my way home I was taken aback by so many people gathering around near the BIR (Bureau of Internal Revenue), then I overheard people conversing that there's a grenade thrown near that area. What happened to the peaceful city I knew? Had they lost their mind? Had evil empowered the mind of these people?

what was my answer

2009-02-06T04:56:00.000-08:00

One of the my unforgettable memories in my College is during my interview before I'll be admitted in freshmen.That day I was preparing myself to talk only when I'm being questioned because the more words that comes out of my mouth the more mistakes and things that shouldn't be putting emphasis with. When I was in the room I tried my very best to be silent but moments later I found myself comfortable and was talking a lot, I even don't know what were the questions and my answers after I got out of that terrifying room. Why am I saying this? Well because our teacher in Pharmacology reminded me about that day, she said during our discussion that before we were student nurses we were so naive. Yes, naive she said she'd been interviewing freshmen vying for a position in the list of student nurses and one of the funny thing is when she'll ask the heredofamilial diseases the student yes in the high blood pressure but would say no if she'll ask if there's a history of hypertension.I thought what was my answer when my interviewer asked me that? OH MY GOSH! Please don't tell me I answered the same with that yes and no thingee...Here I am again doing my overacting but seriously it's an embarrassment..

a change

2009-02-05T02:57:00.000-08:00

Since the very first time I blog, I've been worrying about increasing the traffic of my blog, a friend told me to use Entrecard so I tried it but now I want something new,something innovative. Anyways when I was surfing the net I saw this new networking site I was curious so I tried it. Guess what, when you register it does not need any email address and you can show off your things in your "my stuff category"and even your blog can be put in there thus adding traffic to your blog. Still can't sink in your mind how does it work? Example you put in your "my stuff" your blog you can connect to members who have a blog thus promoting your blog to others. This is a new era we need something new, we need a change. Change is the only thing that is constant in this world,change is inevitable.

separation anxiety at 18

2009-02-04T08:49:00.000-08:00

I was about to cross the street when I heard a siren specifically that of an ambulance.I backed few steps and stood still,when I saw the ambulance came from my town immediately my heart thumped so hard. Wanna know what was in my mind?I thought my mom was in there or any of the family member,I know it's absurd but I was worried. I immediately texted my mother and I was relieved when she replied and said they're alright. I've been like this when I was first came in this city when I was only 12 years old. I don't know if I still act like a preschooler for I still have this separation anxiety. Am I just to immature yet or am just again foolishly overacting?.It's not easy to live alone you know, when your sick no mom can give you medicine and whatever things you needed,no dad that can remind you of the things you should and should not do. I guess I'm not immature nor foolishly overacting I just cared for my family so much, I guess.

a healthy cry

2009-01-31T05:51:00.000-08:00

When was the last time you cried?As of myself I cried a while ago wanna know why? I was watching this movie Charlie and Me(I think I got the title right *wink*). This movie was introduced to me while I was blog hopping and willson blog did a movie review on this. I was so pissed before watching the movie maybe that's why I am so emotional with it,but the movie portrays all the emotions and feelings known to man(i think) from frustration to happiness, from falling apart to moving on.I guess this cry of my is a healthy cry,we should cry for sometimes you know because crying can cleanse the lens of your eyes.

learn from them part 2

2009-01-30T08:16:00.000-08:00

From the previous post I learned how to fold my tee shirt creases free so I tried to find and watch other things to learn when I came across with this video,"Converting A Tee Shirt into A Sexy Dress" I thought "it better be good" so I tried to open it if it's bad then no harm done I can close it you know. The video was weird and cute *wink*seems to me Ella Enchanted came to the real world but instead of making clothes from curtain using used shirt is here style, being fashionable,nature friendly(referring to recycling) and thrifty at the same time seems a whole package to me.

Nightlife Fashion:How To Convert A T-Shirt Into A Sexy Dress

learn from them

2009-01-30T07:58:00.000-08:00

My friend is here with me right a while ago and he introduced me a site wherein it teaches you stuff using videos.I was amazed on how they make this things in a simpler manner,and what amazed me more is this video titled "How to Fold a T-shirt in 2 seconds" Whoah I myself hate folding my cloth because no matter what I do it creases but in this video I learned something.I do learn things from the online world.

Fast Folding:How To Fold A T-Shirt In 2 Seconds

pain+experience=loneliness?

2009-01-29T01:51:00.000-08:00

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"People who have personally experienced pain or who have been exposed to the suffering of someone close are often more threatened by anticipated pain than people without a pain experience." Quoted from the fundamentals of Nursing by Barbara Kozier

Now I know why people are afraid of falling in love,and falling in love again but the more I think about it the more I disagree,pain is viewed differently by every individual.Even the level of pain they can tolerate.For me pain is on how that individual views it,one individual may think that the pain he/she's experiencing is part of a test of life,some may think that pain in intolerable for him/her thus causing trauma to him/her.For me there's always a person who can make someone change on what he/she feels no matter how afraid he/she feels in experiencing pain again,he/she will always take the risk just to be happy.:)

Gong xi fa Cai

2009-01-27T05:01:00.000-08:00

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Gong Xi Fa Cai, Kung Hei Fat Choi!..Happy Chinese New Year!..Belated actually been doing stuff other stuffs lately so here I am greeting you guys a belated greeting.Oh how thoughtful of me..*wink* Whoa miss my mama and papa..and Instik (our neighbor who always call me and my sis Instik) weee..hope I can go home this summer...Hope this year would be lucky for me and for all the people in the whole wide world :D

chaotic politics

2009-01-26T02:13:00.000-08:00

Obama's 12 Secrets To Success

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I was looking for online games until I saw this game.It was not hilarious and most of all it can't do good to the crisis the America and the other countries are experiencing right now. Don't you think other than making fun of people you should do something else better? Just like the politics here in the Philippines they're so much into the issue of filing a case on the president that they forgot the country's problem. They forgot that their leadership is needed for the prices are in major increase. They forgot what were their responsibilities instead they kept making themselves look like an idiot mocking each other in media. They are not celebrities for pete's sake and definitely they are not "telegenic". How chaotic this so called politics,even if politics is in my family line I'll never involve myself with it.

lame reporting!

2009-01-23T04:36:00.000-08:00

Since I was absent last Friday from my History class and that was my turn to report so it have been moved and I have to do it to day. My teacher made it clear to use different techniques not to bore my classmate(i know it's useless doing that because reporting is really boring specially how we report,we're just reading the whole thing) and I really don't have the idea how to do it that's one of the reasons I did not attend school last Friday. When I woke up this morning around 8:30 am,thirty minutes before I,Sherry reading my report so lame in front of the yawning audiences.
30 minutes after I decided not to use my visual aids.In front of the audiences I utter some of my opinions about Japan,a very cramming one it goes like this "She came to the world with the battle ships and strong warriors.She secluded herself from the influences of others.She showed us that she can fight against the world.She recovered from the very verge of destruction.She really is the land of the rising sun, JAPAN. Being in front of this crowd talking about the Japan is my privilege before anything is I am Prof.Sherry Mae C. Mandajos of the NEB(it's the name of the building we are in) Institute.My task here this morning is to discuss things that happened in the Yamato society,one of the period of the Japanese history and bla bla bla....bla..bla..there goes the boring part and wolaa! ALL DONE!

totally outrageous

2009-01-20T23:46:00.000-08:00

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I just came from my school's business and finance office and I waited for almost 3 hours yet the line is not that long compared when enrollment comes,it is organized because they now use the priority number thingee. Some people are so inconsiderable, too many are waiting to pay and some has classes they just got out to pay and get their midterm permit. It was totally outrageous how a woman talked to the teller more than 15 minutes,they talked about Bacolod trip,Cebu,sinulog and so many more,I was not eavesdropping I can't help but hear because she talks loudly,gossiping is not prohibited but we should know where and when to gossip. We are not the only person in the world so be considerable,think well before you do things.

now that is teamwork!

2009-01-19T07:28:00.000-08:00

Oh!I felt my brain is so useless right now after helping my high school friend with his Investigatory Project about the Methanolic Extract as an alternative for Fire Extinguisher well I really can't find a reason why it can kill fire I know aloe vera can kill fire for its colloidal particles.I was suggesting maybe the chemical reaction with the H2O and fire and even CO2 with fire he can find a relation between those said chemical reactions.Grr!.. but when I was doing some research a while ago I remembered that project is a group project consisting of 4 freshmen,4 sophies,4 juniors and 4 seniors why am I so worrying myself 16 brains can conquer brain what are my friend's groupmate doing? He even did the experiment himself burning things.Now I know why they're not done until now.
Also yesterday I know someone who's Dumaguete City's(it's where I leave)dota king and his team the city's defending champion got beaten by the team from Iloilo 4x without winning and they lost 20 thousand pesos for losing the game. When I looked at the replay their enemy is not so into hero killing they have teamwork they don't even use items that are strong but they used items that are for support. They chose one hero that will use stronger items and they will support this hero. See,that is teamwork!

game of perseverance

2009-01-19T06:17:00.000-08:00

I was just playing this new game I encountered Command and Conquer:Red Alert 3. I was amazed by the transition on the graphics they had from the previous two red alert games.The game's cast composed with Hollywood's finest naming few are Jenny McCarthy Tim Curry and also more gorgeous women.The game is more of a "girly" approach compared to the previous game,a mere evidence is when you go to the tutorial area 3 tanks are your mentors colored pink we all know that pink is the universal color of women and also from the game itself it does show less of violence,less darkness in the setting but one drawback of all red alert games is that when creating soldiers you can't create an infantry in just one click which will take time to defeat your enemies and have your victory. Well it's a game,and even in a game to defeat and be victorious you must have the perseverance and guts to finish the game.

dont hurt me

2009-01-17T03:32:00.000-08:00

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What would you feel if your special someone confronted you and says he's sick of you-Just like a chocolate at first its delicious and craves for more but the more you eat the more you become sick of it and in the end you tend to stay away from that food. Would you be hurt? For me I would, what do you think of me? A toy?That after you used them you throw away and fined something new?A relationship should not be like that,in a relationship you have commitment,before commiting yourself you must try weighing things if you can keep that commitment or are you ready for that commitment.In making decisions try not to think only for yourself but to the people around you, the people if they will be hurt or not. To that guy sorry to tell you but you just lost one of the most most valuable things in the world and to my friend it's not your loss its his so go on girl live your life that way it is. I know your strong and nobody can step on you and make you bow down.

Posing as a god

2009-01-13T04:58:00.000-08:00

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Nursing is an art. T'was the ending phrase of our teacher in Community Development later this afternoon during our discussion. Indeed nursing is an art, it is an art to know and understand the culture(which includes tradition) without any trace of judgement from the nurse itself.It's an art because it involves caring for people who are totally strangers and making them comfortable in every possible way during their downtime.Science itself can't heal without the power of care,love and happiness.It is an art for nurses must not show any disgust or criticism on values and beliefs of the patient.The nurse is not to decide for the patient,the nurse's major role is to support the patient support from patient education and even emotional support.The nurse may not be a god but each shift they have they deal lives with an individual.Nurse is not what the media images pertains as the sexy,naughty lil nurses and not even a white uniformed deadly lady carrying with an enormously huge syringe,can describe what nursing profession really is.

what's with mystery stories

2009-01-10T06:47:00.000-08:00

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After reading one of Dan Brown's bestseller book titled Angels and Demon it's kinda funny when I know who the real villain was. I've read two of Dan Brown's masterpieces(Digital Fortress, Angels and Demons) I can say that this man got talent he himself uses facts to make the plot of the story more interesting and realistic. Compared to my all time favorite mystery author Agatha Christie,Dan Brown has a different approach he'll put one character(villain or the murderer) into a place far away from the main character while Agatha Christie makes the villain near to the character as much as possible. One comparison also is I,myself can relate so much with the story of Dan Brown because he uses modern setting meanwhile Agatha Christie is in the let me say the antique days. Agatha Christie uses describes her main character packed with intelligence,vigor(physical and mental strength) more of a James Bond setting while the latter(Dan Brown) describes his main character packed with intelligence but with weak physical strength afraid to risk things. These two may have different ways of writing but they sure do win the masses for being a bookseller. I know they live in different genre but I compared Dan Brown to my favorite mystery author for the both are in same category. I can't compare Dan Brown with Stephanie Meyer so as J.K. Rowling.

a realization

2009-01-06T06:42:00.000-08:00

I was touched this afternoon by what my sister told me,we do have this gossip time after school.She told me a story about her teacher trying so hard to help his former student.This teacher is seeking help from his American friends because his former student named April a 23 year old mother of a 1 year and 1 month old baby is suffering from a disease called LUPUS this girl needs a medication that can't be found in Philippines but available in USA which would cost 400,000 at first I was skeptical about my sister's story believing that teachers are there only to teach and nag all the time in the classroom but when my sister told me to check in the teacher's tagged acount their I found out that it might be true because he leave a contact number and the number of the hospital where the woman is admitted.I guess, I was wrong people do care even if the people just passes the highway of their life, there are some people who won't forget and who are willing to help. There are people even you don't know the people you can feel that you ought to help that individual. Here's the link of that teacher and in there are the ways how you could help April. This girl needs not only financially but spiritually she need our prayers.

a lesson from a cartoon

2009-01-05T04:55:00.000-08:00

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Watching Disney movies and other cartoon shows with my sister will always make my mom to stop from whatever she's doing and said "Don't you two think your all grown up to watch that kiddie shows?" Well I've been thinking about that million times and I have concluded that watching these kind of shows don't make me less of a grown up instead it remind me things in life such as The Tom and Jerry it reminds me that in life there are those who loves you and there are those people who hates you no matter how you put effort in pleasing that individual, and Cinderella story wherein she is to go home by midnight this reminds as that in life there are limitations, and the Little Mermaid wherein Ariel sacrifices her tail for human legs just to be happy. We sometimes assume too much, we must not only focus on the surface but also to the deeper part of the situation lies things that are perfect things that we can learn.

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2009-01-03T04:01:00.000-08:00

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party bash!

2008-12-26T22:58:00.000-08:00

Before I could name out my misery this holiday break I just need to say something about parties.
Ohhhhh! This near-year-end season hosting a party is a very common thing but I was wondering why me and friends particularly the S.I.L.L.I.M.A.N. did not have any party this December,all postponed well sort of. So I'm thinking what are the needs to have a successful party?

First, is the planning of the time and place(rendezvous).

Second,the planning of the menu. If they want to donate then ask what are foods so that you can prepare for the other foods and drinks.

Third, is to remind them a week before the party for them to remember and to prepare the foods they are to bring and their other responsibilities in the party.

Fourth, is to Enjoy the Party. Mingle with your friends either old or new.

Filipino culture that needs to stay and go

2008-12-22T05:15:00.000-08:00

After what my grandma cooked I wanna puke nah seriously anyways enough with what I ate a thought came to my mind while I was eating,have you heard of a dog poacher? We'll I kinda think this man I know is a dog poacher himself. Our neighbors says he loves to eat dogs a lot that why whenever he passes by dogs any dogs they'll bark a him hysterically. I don't know why but his willing to kill dogs if they come by his way. I'm always afraid at him,one time when I'm on my way to school I passed by him and all the dogs are barking so loudly that my heart thumped loudly but I managed I walked faster and faster enough to get out of the situation.One time I overheard the sales girl in the store and asked that man when did he last took a bath and he said that Sunday and that day was Friday when being asked why he said I don't take a bath on Friday's I know its a tradition but don't you think this superstitious beliefs are way too over?So sad he grew up like that I guess it's not about how civilized the city is but how they educate people about the grounds that are needed to be changed.I am not promoting technology or something what I'm trying to say is there are part of the traditions that's good to stay but there are also some part of traditions that are needed to go.

Examples of the things that needed to go are:
*the cutting of the navel of the infant(they use bamboo stick to cut it)

*if the female is pregnant give anything she wants to eat(there is a situation called Pica wherein they crave for nonedible things)

*beliefs in quack doctors (there are some diseases that can be easily treated by real doctors but people opt to seek help from a quack doctor)

*warts can be cured if you'll let a praying mantis bite that wart(there are diseases that can be transmitted by animals)

There are also things that can do no harm:
*A person who breaks mirrors faces seven years of bad luck

*If a pregnant woman eats a fruit from a tree, all the remaining fruits will remain sour.

*When a baby lies on her stomach for the first time, place a pencil, paper, and a book under her so that she will be intelligent.

There are so much Filipino beliefs,indeed Filipino culture is rich but there are also beliefs that need some changes.

happy holidays!

2008-12-22T00:12:00.000-08:00

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greet you guys a Merry Christmas and wish that you'll have a happy new

year. This year I have so many things going on in my life,I have made new

friends,I have lost some of my old friends(how sad),all in all its natural to

have sad moments but I am not looking into that I am thanking the Lord

almighty for making me survive this year.I want to thank you guys for visiting

my blog and to those who supported me Karlj,ate Lovelyn and to all to the

adiks,thank you so much.May we all have a better year next year.

blonde vs brunette?

2008-12-20T02:35:00.000-08:00

Since my tooth is aching so much to keep my mind from thinking about the pain I surfed the net and saw this pictures which are labeled as the "Hollywood blonde". As I had known mostly how you wear your hair now is being discriminated ohw not people are not contented of the racial discrimination.

I'm referring to the two major colors of the hair the BLONDE and the BRUNETTE?
People are stereotypical about the blonde as being the beautiful and georgous,as they always gets the man they like,as a blonde dummy who knows nothing but to pamper herself while a brunette is more on a stronger girl,powerful,more active.

Well as for me it's not the hair it's the inner beauty that prevails,thinking about "hair discrimination" made me remember the movie legally blonde nobody would believe that a she can make the people in washington d.c. impose the law of animal right.
You see it not on the hair you wear because nowadays too many people are wearing different colors from pink hair to yellow green to whatever color they want.It's how you wear it and how you impress people by your physical,emotional,and spiritual aspect.

something new to watch out for

2008-12-19T05:17:00.000-08:00

Oh!oh! After the premiere of Twilight here comes again another Blockbuster movie Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince has released their new trailer. Movie's release due on June 17 2009 this sounds interesting I just hope our country can produce such movies like this. Magical, mythical heroes but there's part in the movie that teaches as something. *wink*

questions about life

2008-12-17T17:08:00.000-08:00

Hmpf!I'm totally wasted early this morning,had our community development exam at 7 am so I have to wake up early I'm still sleepy for I slept at 2 am because I was reading(Oh no!I'm not studying,I'm reading Stephanie Meyer's New Moon so much for the comdev exam *wink)so here I'm feeling so damn high anyways upon opening my friendster saw this bulletin entitled "serious talk".

Hey I managed to read it you know and it's really that serious(oh!oh!can't handle need to laugh..nah just bluffing).Here are the questions and my answers:

What should you do?the right one or wherein your happy?

*hmpf!do i need to decide right now?I guess time is the most important thing in making a decision.

Why is it that everytime you decide all the people around gets affected?

*Hmm the people that surrounds me are part of my life, whether they love or hate me they still are thinking of me :)

Why cant we get everything we wanted?

*Life won't be a challenge anymore :) There are things meant for you and there are things that are meant for others.

How can you be happy or complete if what you wanted won't take place?

Maybe those things are over board or what you want is not that good for you, maybe something better would come.
Why would our feelings be hurt if we didn't get what we want?

*we get disappointed, specially you expected so much, it's alright to be optimistic but don't expect so much because it will hurt more
How many chances you need to give on the things that always fails?

*Patience is a virtue and virtue is a must so as much as possible do everything to perfect things.Determination also is a factor.
Is it right to fight for something that you know you'll lose?

*I guess so..at least I tried. In failure we learn something.

Why is it that the one who made you cry is always the one who gives you the
reason to laugh

reciprocity?*wink* love hurts?I really dont know..I guess we humans are weak..we are weak for falling in love that you forgot that he/she is not only your world you still have friends and family that tries so hard to cheer you up.
Why does it always have to end?

to give way of a new beginning?
Do you need to cry too let people know that you're hurt?

*there are people who are insensitive..and also to the people who thinks only for themselves not knowing that they actually are hurting someone :(

Why is sometimes we need to pretend?

pretending is what I really hate..deep inside you still bleed,you still feel the pain but there's nothing you could but move on with your life..to heal the pain you really go away in that scenery.
What is the difference between important and love?

*..won't you get offended when someone tells you I love you because I need you?"
Do you need to be hurt before you know that you're already falling in love?

*it's not always like that but sometimes you need to check your heart before it's too late,everything needs to end right?
If your hoping does that mean you're serious to get that thing you really wanted?

maybe?..but sometimes you hoped so much that you forgot that you have to do something to achieve that..walk your talk

How would you know that you love someone seriously?

here we go again..I guess love is just a mere fabrication of our creative mind..
but I guess there really is true love(among humans)..for me true love is the when you are ready to risk your own life just for that person,your willing to make sacrifices, your ready to face the challenges ahead,you pictured out that both of you will live peacefully.

whew!answering those questions sure drained a lot of my energy I better sleep before I'd collapse :)

my dream tour around the world

2008-12-14T05:40:00.000-08:00

I am so stressed out today that after my chores I had my daydreams. I asked myself If I will be given a chance to go to 5 places in the world where will I go and why?

Here are the places I opt to go:

Paris by just looking at the scenery I fell in love already.
Paris is one of the glamorous city in Europe.
It's monuments are standing still with arrogance.

Greece! The stunning Greece with the acropolis' ancient view.
You can really have the ambiance of the god's and goddesses surrounds you due to its ancient structures.

Jerusalem, world's most special place. Holy city for the Christians, Jews and Muslims, this place is magnificent with it's fantastic view, fantastic because the city is made up of several hilltops. Who says you can't have fun in a sacred city.

The famous Galapagos Islands due to the vast endemic species that inhabit only this island.
This vacation is comparable with a Hawaiian tour except that species you haven't encountered before will greet you with their rare beauty.

Last but not the least the Philippines, you may say love my own but the in this country lie the lost wonders of the world(exaggerate but true). The country's chocolate hills,Banaue rice terraces, Bocaray's luxurious beaches, Bohol's man made forest name it we got it (except pyramids). I want also to travel my own country to help the tourism of our country. I am not doing because only of the people but also for our culture to be spread and to regain our power and show to the world that we really are the Pearl of the Orient Sea.

everything happens for a reason

2008-12-13T04:36:00.000-08:00

Everything really happens for a reason quoted it from a friend anyways it's really true. I was problematic about which outing to go with(see previous post) but a text message late yesterday evening stating that the outing of S.I.L.L.I.M.A.N. will not be pushed through because not all can go to the said outing. Ok all set, I'm set to go the Rene Online's Christmas party.

Since I, as usual woke up late so I have to go to the beach alone :( But hey it's worth it being with friends is one of the very reason why my life keeps going. From 11am to 5 pm we just spend this day to talk, to swim and to play Frisbee, soccer and whatever craziness we can think of.

Oh hopefully 10 years from now I can still spend days like these with them.

tiny problem

2008-12-12T02:02:00.000-08:00

I'm too excited we will have our outing tomorrow but I have a tinnie winnie problem I am having trouble whom to go with my Rene Online friends are having our Christmas party at the beach and my S.I.L.L.I.M.A.N friends will also be having an outing tomorrow. Oh I'm confused can't they just fuse or something? Anyways come what may..que sera sera whatever will be will be. *wink

learning something from jokes

2008-12-11T02:02:00.000-08:00

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I still have this cough but hey I can manage to stand still now without getting dizzy anyways this is not the reason why I am writing this blog. Early this evening I got a text message it goes like this

"Boy and girl fell in love and promised to love each other forever. As a sign of their promise the girl gave d guy a bracelet locked in his wrist and the girl kept d key. When they grew up the boy fell in love with another girl and he asked for the key so that he could unlock the bracelet. The girl smiled give the key and simply walked away. After two days the guy found out that the girl died because of heart failure. The key used to unlock the bracelet was the same key used to operate the oxygen tank which keeps her breathing. At the funeral the boy read the words carved in the key I'll die if I lost you. Sad? Aduh! When did the oxygen tank has a key to make it work?"

Haha! You get so deep into the feeling of being in love that you forget about the reality. You see how you can love manipulate your mind? A funny message yet you can learn something from it.

Pinoy Hangaroo

2008-12-09T06:35:00.000-08:00

While chatting(as usual) saw this ad from flexy8,it says Pinoy Hangaroo , of course I am a filipino it's a natural to be curious and there in this site is a Pinoy version of the famous game Hangaroo. I am happy because playing the Hangaroo before makes my nose bleed (not literally) now at least I can relate who are the people and places in the mentioned in the Pinoy Hangaroo. If you want to check it out and play it for yourself here's the site http://www.macuha.com/hangaroo/hangaroo.html ENJOY!.:)

A hospital visit

2008-12-07T20:29:00.000-08:00

I just reached home from the hospital, oh not for a duty but I was there for I had a check up. The scent hospital, the horrifying scenes and the busy staffs of the hospital had triggered by crave to stay longer but I too have my own plan and activities for the day so I head home.

Oh the doctor's first impression is PNEUMONIA. Geez, I predicted that already that's why I took Amoxicillin but she said she will prescribe me better antibiotic(stronger antibiotic generation). What is pneumonia? From what I've learned it is an inflammation of the lungs and the too much filling of fluid in the alveoli.

Tsk2x anyways that's only the first impression so she have to do more tests for me, she requested for a chest x-ray (for she said I'm exposed to Tuberculosis because of my duty in the hospital), CBC (to know my platelet count for dengue and also to see if I have typhoid fever). Whew! How I wish I only have pneumonia or so.

Ohw I'm scared!..
Scared scared..
scaredy cat..
Hehehe anyways I gotta run still have to go back to the hospital later.
ciao..

never ever take things for granted

2008-12-07T02:00:00.000-08:00

Even though Im raging right now because of this damn mouse I would really make a post about the song 'If I Were A Boy'. I really hated my sister for she repremanded me because I love that song and she told me that it's a for lesbi's and whatever they call it. I asked her "And were did that thought of you about that song coming from huh?" Her answer? Oh the most dumb I could ever think of (i guess she too can have her own opinion you know) "from Langging (a Lesbian as verbalized by my dear sister), she loves that song so much because her friends(group of lesbi's) told her it fits for them." Oh great now I can't love that song? Her are the things why girls (straight girls) can love Beyonce's If I Were A Boy :

"If I were a boy, I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl; I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her, cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted 'cause he’s taken you for granted,
and everything you had got destroyed..."

Most girls are being taken for granted by their men and all they could do is cry.
Hey girls could truly relate.

"If I were a boy, I would turn off my phone;
Tell everyone that it's broken, so they'd think that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first, and make the rules as I go,
'Cause I know that she’d be faithful, waiting for me to come home, to come home..."

Men?Men (stereotyping) always take their women for granted because they know, they won't find another man.

"But you're just a boy... you don’t understand (and you don’t understand, oh)
How it feels to love a girl; Someday, you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her, you don’t care how it hurts...
Until you lose the one you wanted 'cause you've taken her for granted
And everything that you had got destroyed"

You'll know the importance of a person if he or she is already lost.So to the people who are, who will and done with love you must be sensitive to your partners. Never ever take her for granted for one day you might wake up too late she/he is already outside bringing her baggage waiting for a taxi to bring him/her home. It's not only for the boys it's for everyone to ponder.

Just make friends

2008-12-06T02:53:00.000-08:00

Flexy8.comI really am so pissed I had an argument with someone in the phone.Ok I understand I'm really annoying but hey was just calling because I need something really important, as a matter of fact I am not looking for him,it's someone else. That someone else texted me and told me that I'll bare with the guy who just I had argument with because he lost in their game 'DOTA'. Oh geee! I remember his the one who is so bossy that nobody wants to play with him anymore. Every game they play he really hates to lose a game, how irrational. See? he lost his friends due to this nonsense,due to his desire to win in every game he plays,he even hates when his team mates delays in using skills and he died.He was blinded by desire his passion to the game is abnormal. Oh please spare me the place would be so loud due to his trash talks come to think of it it's his team mates. We can gain friends and we can lose friends also you know. For me friendship is not always forever some come and go,so make the most of it treasure them.

best present ever!

2008-12-04T20:38:00.000-08:00

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The greatest gift of all?..My most favorite holiday present ever is being with my family. I know you'll think how passe,Ms Universe answer but hey it's really true. That answer came from the deepest part of my heart. I've been away from home when I was only 12 years old (I guess), I really made so much sacrifice in my going to school. I wasn't able to see my cousin grow, I wasn't able to see my sister got her left hand injured,I wasn't able to see my other cousin changed her fair complexion to dark complexion. I missed too much events yet I don't have regrets for I know I have learned things and I proved that I can be independent (but not totally independent still needs mama's help).

bad news

2008-12-03T01:36:00.000-08:00

Last night while I was under the blanket because I'm having chills someone's knocking at our room(my sister's and I). We were surprised when we saw mom and look horrified, we asked her 'ma?why are you here?'. We then knew our uncle got involved in an accident and his companion died. The first thing I asked was 'was he drunk'? I was never wrong he got so drunk and he drive the motorcycle so fast that they clashed with another motorcycle. Now great mom has to absent from her work to attend to his brother's need and everything. Oh I really hate people being drunk creating problems but hey what is done is done so what we have to do is pray and support him in his needs,hopefully his learned his lesson well.

planetary conjunction

2008-12-02T05:11:00.000-08:00

Last night December 1,2008 was another event in life that happens once in a lifetime. I was chatting last night at flexy8.com and extremecomments.com when my friend texted me to look at the moon because he said it formed a smiley. I hurriedly went out and there in the horizon the twilight of the moon in it's 1/4 form (or so I saw hehe) and two planets,later did I know that was the Jupiter and the Venus. That was December 1 a m0nth of happiness and love maybe it was a sign. This past months, generally this year is not really good, too many sufferings, the commodities prices growing up,too many talks about the corruption that they forgot their duty. They forgot that they must focus more on the poverty problem in our country(Philippines). For me the planetary conjunction (smiley sign) is sign, a symbol that says let's all love each other to have happiness and free from the miseries.

getting through the mocking society

2008-12-01T05:12:00.000-08:00

I was chatting late this afternoon, the usual chitchat with my online friends, the hi and hello's then came this name in the chat room 'Vaklush' (a slang Visayan vernacular of the word gay). I won't react on this because it's their choice, it's their gender you know but then there's something about he said that caught my attention. "You girls are so blessed that you are girls"
Our society nowadays specially here in Philippines discriminates the gays and lesbians in our community.Being the third gender is not easy, Vaklush when asked what was the reaction of his parents answered "I was beaten 'til I dropped to the ground and until now my father,my own father won't listen to things I say and even won't look at me.That's why I'm doing my best in everything I'm doing." You see,an opinion from the primary source not made up,you might see this third gender shouting, laughing at each other and maybe you might be pissed by how irritating they are but maybe it's their coping mechanism from the stress and frustrations they feel. These people also want to have the sense of belongingness in the society that they tend to create group such as a group in my university, unfortunately it was not approved by the administration. Sad but true, those who belong in this gender tried there very best to be straight but this primary source of mine told me "we can't be who we are not". It's who we are is we are,at least they tried to be 'normal' for their family,for the society yet they can't fool themselves. They are really struggling that they became strong persons, so the next time you see someone who belongs into this gender never ever mock them instead congratulate them for they are strong enought to live through the mocking eyes of the people around them.

the existence of tinkerbelle

2008-11-29T23:56:00.000-08:00

It's already 1am and still I am here in front of the monitor, finished watching a movie titled Tinkerbell. Yah I know, the fairy from Peter Pan, she too have her own story of existence. You may think it's only for preschoolers to see but if you go deeper it helps us see that in every character is a story of their existence. A story of hardship,belongingness,frustrations, of course happiness and achievements. Tinkerbell hates being a Tinker for she can't accept her talent is on craftsmanship, she hates being a Tinker for she can't go to the mainland. She can't accept who she really is until she realized it at the end. We must not follow Tinkerbelle, she realized who she was only when she had done much, much damaged to the extent that she ruined spring season. Tinkerbell a movie that the whole family should watch not only to the preschoolers,it's a movie for the whole family.

can we be friends...

2008-11-26T19:05:00.001-08:00

No man is an island. An old time quotes that until now help us in every decision we make. Do you think without your mother you'll be here reading my blog? Do you think you can live without no one to spend your unproductive time with? We might wanna be lonesome for sometimes but with no one to converse is very boring and can make you daydream all the time.
In millions of situation many overseas worker from Philippines always have this culture shock syndrome. It happens because of not knowing anyone from the country, no one to go to the mall with, no one to share secrets with, no one to share their ups and downs, no one to take care of them. In short they're just bored. Oh the undying 'boredom' can only be healed by making new friends and spending some time with old and friends.

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above are the reason of my existence
the reason of my happiness and even my sadness :p but im grateful they all came to my life and changed it. To them you might not know it but you guys changed a whole lot of me....

Health freak

2008-11-26T18:02:00.000-08:00

Today I'm a dead meat, cough evaded me again. A dry, unproductive cough specifically,in the field of medicine cough is a defense mechanism. It's a reflex occurring which helps to clear large breathing passageway from irritants, excess excretion, irritants, foreign materials and even microbes.Frequent or severe coughing usually indicates the presence of a disease.Since cough is a protective reflex, suppressing the cough reflex might have deleterious effects.
(credits from Mr. Obate BSN.RN) So even just a cough we must not take things for granted. Don't do self medication for there are drugs that exacerbate certain diseases. Be a healthy being for health is wealth *wink*

For those who are, will be and was in love with love

2008-11-24T06:23:00.000-08:00

I read this friendster bulletin titled 'For those who are, will be and was in love with love' sounds interesting huh? That's why it got my 3 minute attention span *wink* and since it got my attention so I am gonna share this to you.

1.Loving someone isn't about seeing him/her as often as you can. I am hearing my friends whine about her boyfriend not seeing her for a day and not texting her for almost three hours and stuff like that but mind me love is not about that it's about trust. Trusting each other is the very reason each relationship stand strong. You might not see the apple of your eye for just a day, he might not text you for hours maybe he/she has more important things to do.

2. Too much jealousy can kill. but a little of it is healthy. Too much jealousy is irritating and this may cause arguments after arguments yet little jealousy is nice, knowing your loved one fears of losing you.

3. Never underestimate the value of holding hands. This act is the prelude of kiss. Excerpt from Romeo and Juliet "Let lips do what hands do: they kissed."

4. When you fight, what's the use of prolonging it? Pride another reason a happy ending is ruined, main reason why happy days are wasted.

5. Never take for granted the word "baby" or "honey."Say all mushy things you can think of but don't you ever forget he/she is a friend who you can share your distress and whatever negative things you are emotionally attached with.

6. But when time comes that your love fails, never regret, and never forget. Everything happens for a reason. Love may fail the first try and the next try and the next try remember in every experience is a lesson. A lesson you've learned that helps you in maturing and in growing stronger. Don't dwell so much in the past for it can do any good, just learn the lesson and move on.

7. Another thing, never get sad of what you've lost because there is none. Whew sad? Don't be,Always remember that it's an experience. You didn't lose him/her maybe the best has not come yet and is there in the end of the road waiting for you.

Those are the 7 things he said about love I just made the explanations.*wink*
For us guys to ponder to.
*wink*

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Free from our cage

2008-11-23T01:51:00.000-08:00

Upon my journey to this world called Bloglandia I encountered so many blogs. Blogs of different concepts, themes and different information if I'll read all in the same day I could have information overload. Upon hopping from one blog to another I learned much much than I can imagine but one blog really caught my attention. This blog has the title Forum Demokrasi.I don't know what country his from but from my understanding I can say that this talks about the most precise word I've known 'Democracy'. I have quoted some of his entry and this entry is about the Philippines, since elementary school I am really into this political thingee so I guess that's why I want to react. This is his entry, "The civil service, staffed predominantly by Filipinos, was relatively efficient during the American colonial era After independence, however, it quickly degenerated. The combination of low prestige, incompetence, lousy pay, and inadequate resources was demoralizing and the opportunities for graft were many. " Being a resident of the Pearl of the Orient Sea I truly believe in this quote after the American government set as free and my country became a Republic we were suffering a lot of problems. One of this problem is the long time disease of a state 'Corruption'.
My forefathers had their sweats and blood shed for nothing. Our country may have our independence and freedom, our brothers and sisters may have ruled the country yet no difference has been felt. The rich becomes richer and the poor becomes poorer. Promises been made from the reign of President Marcos until this very present each year the Philippines debt is growing. What is the medicine of this long time disease tell me? What are we going to do? What are we going to do to be free from this cage, because inside this cage is an epidemic disease called 'Corruption'.

this eye problem of mine

2008-11-21T08:01:00.000-08:00

Its 1:30 am and I am still wide awake here in front of the monitor. This is not the first time sleeping late. It had become a habit even during weekdays I do sleep at most 2am and still have to wake up by 7am due to this undying staying at night habit. I might be an insomniac already(aw good luck) related to this I am having problem with my eye bags. This poor inflamed under eye circles of mine. I have been bothered and this caused me to search the net for suggestions in lessening these eye bags of mine. Hey I might be talking baloney for you but this really bothers me.
It ruins by self esteem (if i have it*wink).

imperfectly perfect!

raging eye bags :(

the eye bags cant be seen, see the difference?

Oh well as I'd said before I saw this suggestion to use anything that retains water for a long period of time such as chilled thin sliced cucumber, cant be a wet cloth and apply it in your eyes.
I must also have sleep more sleep I say. 5-6 hours of sleep it ain't enough. I also saw this hemorrhoid cream used for eradicating eye bags? H mm I don't know about that *wink*
Anyways I gottabounce and rummage the kitchen to look for a sliced cucumber. ^_^ This better work.

Another emote moment

2008-11-21T04:02:00.000-08:00

Today is tiring yet a bit interesting, we had our quiz in Pharmacology and I guess twas good.
H mm calculations? I guess my it's my weakness. Being a student really is tiring yet going home at the end of the day is a reward when your family texted and ask you how was your day? I'm excited to go home because my mom's birthday will be this 24th of November. I miss my mom I really wanna go home. If only I am not being happy go lucky I would really have the confidence and show them my 'cute' face (hahha..im just being narcissistic *wink).

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Happy Birthday ma!.

hate this!

2008-11-20T03:46:00.000-08:00

What am I going to do? I felt so lost and insecure why can't I decide things for myself? Do I have to kill myself to let people know that I am having problems of my own? I have been pleading yet nothings changed.Why can't they understand me? :(

2008-11-18T06:32:00.000-08:00

Tick.tack.tick.tack clocks ticking and this morning I was sitting at a four cornered room with my eyes slowly closing, and the words that I'm hearing from my dear teacher were becoming into a faint whisper. Then I was awakened when I hear my ball pen dropped and I have to pick it up and pretend nothing happened. I really am sleepy yet upon going to school I was totally refreshed I was bored by our teacher in the first 30 minutes of our class. When I was looking at my classmates actions are really funny, the 'facial grimacing', the what time is it actions, some are pretending to be reading while sleeping. I guess I am not the only one who got bored. Sitting and hearing lessons for 2-3 hours can be a very boring thing you know.
It's totally unbearable *wink* but I was wondering why when during my major classes which is from 8am-12am is never that boring I tend to absorb some highlighted lessons. I guess my teacher is not really that boring. Base in my observations the teaching strategies really varies the most.
The teacher must make the dull moments gay by telling jokes that are related to the lesson. The teacher must provide instructional media or something such as using a PowerPoint presentation(little animations can help you know). And not teach passively, passive learning is not that effective, the teacher should make the students participate for sometimes, teachers should do all the talking. In this way the teacher can evaluate if his/her students. Being an efficient teacher means so much from the student because by helping a student learn means a better and productive citizen in the future.

Behind the hearsays

2008-11-17T03:21:00.000-08:00

Its been almost three days now that the Friendster site has been down. Different hearsay, different stories, comes out from the minds of curious people. We are humans and one of the qualities of human race is curiosity. We tend to seek answers to the different questions our mind creates.
Now the Friendster team answered our questions through posting it in the bulletin.

The Friendster was down not because of a virus,not because it was hacked, not because the Friendster site will forever be lost but because of the power outage at the site's data center at Santa Clara, California. About the Friendster accounts who are not yet fixed the Friendster team assured us the data was not lost and all accounts well be back to normal soon. Working with 85 million accounts is not that easy and it can't be done by overnight so we will try to be patient and understand the inconvenience.For more informations about this issue just visit. http://blog.friendster.com/.

Hellspawn

2008-11-16T07:32:00.000-08:00

I was looking at the movie collections we have and saw this weird movie titled Spawn and was in theatres in the year 1997. The story was good although the graphics are incomparable to those of Transformers, Iron Man and all those new fiction movies. It is about an assassin who's double crossed by his own boss and was burned to death. The assassin loves his wife so much that he made a deal with the devil. The deal was he will come back to life with a certain amount of energy but when it runs out, he will return to Hell as a Hellspawn, and help in the war against Heaven. When he reached earth he found himself living in a dingy alleyway with his distorted scary face. Years passed and he found out that his wife was married to his bestfriend. Spawn was escorted in earth with the devil's minion(a clown) during those years,he was taught to make evil ways despite his mentor's efforts he still make good deeds. A fellow Hellspawn helped Spawn to control his energy and his real power was released. He was never over with his murderer that he targeted his boss(Wynn) and have a sweet revenge but what he don't know that if he'll kill Wynn he might start the Armageddon between Heaven and Hell. Wynn has in his heart a device that will trigger the release of a deadly virus worldwide. Fortunately he didn't kill Wynn and after that the clown evolved into a hideous creature and battled with Spawn. The battlle ended with the clown being defeated and returned to hell,Spawn himself was left in earth dedicated himself to justice.
I see it very interesting because he is invincible he just needs to concentrate whatever power he can think of will get it. His like wolverine of X-men that can regenerate. His like the superman "man of steel". The power of each known hero was put together in a one scary looking individual named HELLSPAWN! This movie was really very good I was wondering why there's no sequel of this good movie. I guess they have to wait for me and I'll make the sequel of this movie.*wink
Awh before I forget I checked the net this morning and I found out that this movie is based from a comic book. Oh well,you better watch this movie to see for yourself. Each one of us has different tastes in movies, we may have different opinions.
dark spawn

silhouette of spawn..his famous red cape!

Friendster site down

2008-11-15T04:03:00.000-08:00

Friendster down for 2 days now? Upon opening the friendster website yesterday the site was in temporary maintenance so my surfing the net schedule was not complete. Early this morning I was excited for I have new pictures to upload but before that my friend told me that she wants to cry her heart out for her Friendster account from 100 to 2 friends. I was laughing at her telling her maybe somebody used her account and deleted those friends of her's but I was displeased when I opened my account and saw that my friends list from 700+ was decreased to 8 people. Its unfair, its outrageous its unbelievable, how can that be? After few clicks the site again in temporary maintainance. I was wondering can the Friendster team restore the database?Will my account be returned to normal? Will i be connected to my dearest friends and love once again? Hopefully the Friendster team will do their very best. ^_^

2008-11-14T03:19:00.000-08:00

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Violently killed

2008-11-13T17:59:00.000-08:00

This dawn at almost 2 am I am awakened by a woman's crying so I get out of bed and try to figure out who was it. Outside the house is woman crying with her hands is the dog named Ashley aka Ash bleeding and grasping for breath. Twas a very distressing scene for me, that dog I love so much is in front of me grasping for his last breath. He was shot and there's nothing I can do but watch. Early this morning our neighbor told us that he's sorry that he killed our Ash. He explained to us why he do such thing, he said their chicken was killed by Ash. I was really furious why kill a 15K dog for a single chicken but Im not after the money. Come to think of it we treated Ash as part of the family, plays with you when you get home. The Philippines don't have the law not to murder dogs but doing that act is very violent. The Philippines only have the Anti-Rabies Act of 2007 which seeks to control and eliminate human and animal rabies and also the dog meat traders being banned for it is cruelty to the animals. There's nothing we could do but to forgive and forget and hope Ash will rest peacefully and the memories will always remain.:(

Why blog?

2008-11-12T01:09:00.000-08:00

I have a friend who asked me why blog? She said that blogging can do me nothing, but she was wrong with the latter statement. I have get too many things if I blog. First is I can earn money through blogging. Second I can earn not only money but friends through blogging. Third I can express my feelings very well. Fourth blogging can be my favorite past time.
You see blogging is never a waste of time.

halloween antic?

2008-11-02T00:38:00.000-07:00

Halloween holiday, well let me think about it hmm normally i'd spend this day with my family,since i can't go home so I spend it with my ARCKE friends. I am suppose to go with my S.I.L.L.I.M.A.N. friends but i was not able to go with them due to my undying tardiness. It's my first time to be in tejeros so it's my opportunity to grab and being with the ARCKE should be fun. At first im in doubt to take a bath but Jheck took pictures and I as a narcissist pose and pose until I got myself all wet.Here are the pictures Jheck took.

poolside cuties ^_^

be happy as long as ur alive *wink

simply captivating

even though its cold the narcissistic side really prevails

meditate with us..

scaredy cat cham..

on our way home..

how i hate failure!

2008-10-31T03:43:00.000-07:00

One of my most dreaded word is FAILURE!. I hate myself for being a failure,damn two majors i failed?.Im i really that dumb?. The pain now is that I am embarrassed that i failed because too many has been expecting too much for me. Im sorry i had failed you :( I guess i am not mature enough to finish nursing that early, maybe i just need time to fix myself and this damn brain of mine.When will i be mature enough, or nursing is not really my calling?. For now on i'll try to be mature and soar high! No more class 2010 but class 2011 hopefully. Well it's my first time to taste failure thanks SUCNA for I making me experience this feeling.nyahahah

~shemIstry~

i simply hate

2008-10-30T22:38:00.000-07:00

i hate every thing about you

so cold.

so mysterious.

so confusing.

so spontaneous.
yet how come my heart beats faster when your
around

i simply hate that i love you .*wink*

lay low!

2008-10-30T20:14:00.000-07:00

Good morning sunshine. I guess I woke up in the right side of the bed *wink* hmm should I be doing this overacting stuff again?nah I'll just do that once for him no more miss overacting but my foolishness will still remain. *wink* And if i'd hurt him sorry for calling him a jerk i can't find another word that best describe him.peace! heheh his not really that jerk*wink* I'd just hope he'd say it again for me but i guess it wont happen again. As my brother said don't expect too much from him so here i am trying to pick up the broken pieces and stitch it to become whole again and say to everyone im good without him!..
~shemistry

2008-10-29T10:18:00.000-07:00

Sometimes ihave this feeling that he can distort the reality.This aching heart i feel, this confused brain of mine what is he trying to do to me? Am i not worthy to have an explanation of what he really feels? His been a jerk this past few days and he'll be going away next month. I just need his explanation why he grew cold on me. I know i have no right to know everything about him but i just need what is going in that brain of his specifically his hypothalamus. I know he might think i am foolishly overacting but this what i feel.I felt abandoned and it ain't a good thing to feel.